It is usually said, that a person is mentally devastated when he is unable to comprehend his present state of life.
However, if you apply the introductory verse of this post in your life, I say you will not be disappointed. That's what it is (conscious & constant flow of repetitive attempts). If I sit in a corner and ponder as to what events were subject to my very own self determination I would end up with a blank page :-( I would hardly even jot down a single word. I see 'Self Determination' as a constant process of confusion which ultimately result into a virtuous verdict for oneself (yes!, why I say virtuous verdict for oneself, because; obviously your own interpretations won't be fruitful for the other) lets face it, isn't it true?
What events have self determined you? OR your character? You possibly have a personality today, due to your persistent efforts towards self determination.